Durka Durrr

I want to feel emaciated.

However, I don't want to look that way. I just want to be thin and light.
I haven't felt this way in a while.
I lost another few kilos while I was away...
I'm about half an inch from when I was at my thinnest. Well, my lowest that I recorded anyway.

Yeah, I'm back again from Darwin.
I was spiked on the second night of being there and from that moment on, everything went downhill. It's all cool but.

I lost the plot - lost it in a big way. I could barely speak for the first few days after I got home. I just had a massive lump in my throat.
I'm waking up in a pool of sweat during the nights. Not just a small wading pool - like, an olympic sized, 10 metre deep pool. I guess it's just all the shit and alcohol coming out of my body from the last few weeks.

I'm not sure how to fix myself.

Just watched "Into The Wild" - if I'd seen that on the day I lost my head - then I'd probably be okay. That movie could have saved my life that day.


I met some interesting people though.