I'm on the pursuit of happiness.

I slipped down the stairs yesterday on a main road.
It was embarassing, I wont lie. I felt myself slip off one stair and everything went in slow motion.. I was just thinking "fuck, I'm falling over - how do I stop this?" .. I fell on my hand and fucked it up so bad. I have scratches and bruises all over my bum. As soon as I slipped on the first step I knew my hand was too bad to stop me from slipping down the rest so I just gave in to it.. slipped all the way down to the bottom with my dress around my hips. Nice. Reeeallll good.
After it, I went all funny. I couldn't see anything. My vision just went completely white. All I could see was white. My ears also blocked. I couldn't hear anything.. and I was sweating disgustingly. Like, buckets of sweat just pouring off me like I'd just pee'd myself. It was gross. I wonder why I had a reaction like that.


I just went to the doctors for a checkup after the abortion. I told her that I'd had unsafe sex since then.. and that's a massive No-No! I wasn't supposed to be having sex at all until about a week ago according to the rules of what happens after the abortion. I don't think I'm pregnant.. but I haven't got my period yet. So she made me take a blood test. I'll find out tomorrow whether I am or not.



I've also been reading through my old entries. I'm so unbelievably boring now. I used to go out all the time then. Do anything I wanted. I was also hating myself. I don't know why.

Back on track. Still at 60kg.
Birthday weekend this one so I'm not eating until Thursday (my actual birthday) so I can feel a bit slimmer for the weekend. I wonder if a two-day fast will help??