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I have to get back into this blog thing AND I'm sure I will once work starts back again on Monday. I've just done absolutely awful.
This morning I had another Healthy Choice Meal 300cal.
bowl of icecream - 500cal.
Chicken Sandwhich - 125bread. 10lettuce/other bits. chicken bout 130.
SO I've pretty much gone over my limit by about a million. =(
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I ended up purging the whole sandwhich. I felt a bit better.
Didn't stop there - had some spaghetti on toast =(
Purged that.
Didn't stop.. Had a big bag full of grapes.
Jam and butter on bread
3 water crackers with vegemite.
Picked at olives and pickled onions.
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I'm feeling so awful today.
As I said, my friend is leaving in February. I'm feeling so sad she's going. I just don't know what I'm going to do. The last few weeks have been amazing with her. I guess I'm just gonna have to get back into going to going to the usual places and whatever else with other friends. But I don't want to. I want to go out with her to the gigs and festivals and hook up with the bands playing like we've been doing. I just don't want her to leave....
Have I been eating so much because she's leaving?? I don't know. Fuck!!!! Fucking back to work on Monday. I feel like shit.
I applied for a job closer to home. I just want to fucking scream. Stay here!! Please don't leave!!!
Yeah and fuck you Muse for putting me in a more sad mood.
I can't listen to any music at the moment without wanting to burst into tears.