hmm

Okay my thing totally fucked up then

here's the quickest summary
i had the soup
handful of corn chips
2 small disgustingly disgusting lamb chops
.... purged the chops.

most of them.

i feel disgusting

i feel like an awful person for what happened with Jesus.

I've fucked him around because of my own insecurities.

i just messaged him and apologised - even tho that's going to make me look stupid because in my head, his feelings aren't real.. so he'll be making fun of me right now.