Marry me, Johnny.

I just think it's totally annoying when someone says:
"Why are you counting calories? - You don't need to!"
...
Well, um.. der, obviously I have to. If I didn't - I wouldn't be this fucking size, would I?
...
My friend asks me the most stupid questions.
Is cake fattening?
I think I nearly fell over backwards when she asked me that.
...
So I'm down to 52 today. Maybe only cos of all the vomiting I did last night. I leant over the lookout and spewed up a litre of goon.
Good times.

.Now to todays count.

One small slice of chicken

Itty bit of salad

Nectarine

- I'm gonna count it to about 150 altogether -

And that's me done for the day. Honest.

Really.

Believe me and I'll believe myself

How hot is the guy from the Killers? Wah!!

Soundwave soon. Like Sarah said - gotta get the weight down.

Oi oi. I was gonna not worry about calories. I was gonna just eat sensibly cos I thought .. well... food wont be that available when I leave.. I binged yesterday.

I had - chicken sanga - chicken, mustard and one piece of bread. bitta butter.

Nectarine - chicken salad - crackers - lots more but I totally forget.

Anyway - I'm all like yeah mad. Eat sensibly.

But I just can't do it

I don't want to go overseas as a fatty, you know? I want to make a good impression at the start. Not after a few weeks.

SO - back to restricting.

I want to keep the body I have right now.

Just a couple more kilos to go.. woo hoo. 50, here I come!